I still cannot believe you're gone, Dad. I've passed by you and Pam alot in the past few days, going to and from Ella's soccer games in and around N. Ridgeville. But I'm sure you already know this! And I always pass by the cemetary, even at night. Twice last evening. Even though I know you're both not really there. It still seems very surreal, all of this. Nothing is real. We all miss you and Pam very, very much. Please help us get through these times from where you are now. I know you're watching over your family, being the protector, as you've always been since I've known you. I wish I had more than just five years with you. Those years were a gift, but they weren't nearly enough. I hope you know what you've honestly and truly meant to me. What it is I now carry in me.